Grandpa, I'm sorry, but I HATE HG!!

I haven't been asleep since 145am. This is horrible!!! I'm on the verge of both vomiting and crying!!! I hate this!! Every time my body attempts to doze off I get that light headed feeling where ur head is detaching from ur body, and it feels like its just floating. Then my legs and arms get really heavy and I can't move them and then ugh....I can't even talk about it!!! I'm getting worked up about it!
I am going to call the doc when they open. I don't know if they can "do" anything for these symptoms, but all I know is that I can't physically function like this!
I don't know if it is one specific thing, my guess is not!!! I'm guessing it is a multitude of things: HG, Meds, hormones, possible dehydration (I've been doing good tho), nutrition or lack there of, Anxiety, anemia, low blood pressure, pain...I suppose the list can go on and on. I don't want it to tho, I want it just to be over.
I'm tired of this all, such an understatement. It is so hard to put in words how my body feels, how I feel. I know I overuse the word bizarre, but really it's the best word I have. I don't have another one.
Having your body go through pregnancy has enough bizarre changes of its own without adding HG to the mix. Add HG and u are just...just...f*^<£+d. There is no other way to say it.
83 days left of this hell. 83 days until we can welcome our little princess. 83 days to try and figure out how I'm going to make it 83 days. *SIGH* I know people say, "God doesn't give u anything u can't handle." But on days and nights like this....I beg to differ. I really do. I wonder what the motive is here??!! What is the underlying message from God, from my body, from myself??? I hate this...I really do!! I was once told by my grandpa to never use the word hate, as it is so strong and powerful. He taught me to use dislike...well Grandpa, I'm sorry, BUT I HATE HG!!!

Until Later
~J