Sunday, August 17, 2014

Burning...burning....burning (sung in a scale)

Every time I read the title to my blog:
This is my life until May 2013, 
I laugh. What's the joke you ask?? Me!!! I'm the flippin' joke!! It's August of 2014 and I'm still dealing with this shit!!! I really can't wait to get my life back! Pfft!

Long story short. I've been sick with a cold since Tuesday. It's 12:51ambon Sunday. I'm pretty sure I have bronchitis. A sinus infection for sure!!! ANYWAY....I told the hubs tmrw (today, Sunday) I was going to urgent care cuz every time I cough I feel like my lungs will explode. Sounds good, I'm going first thing I'm the AM. Well, at 12:17 my body is JOLTED awake like old times and my body is on fire. And I don't me the oh, it tingles and is kinda numb. NO, I mean 4 freaking alr fire my back chest and arms are gonnaelt off!!! I was ca, took a whole Xanax, talked myself through it, took a crap, did my routine google search for "whole body burning sensation" read the same articles I always read, and then came here to update.  

Urgent care for cold meds, hopefully a CBC blood draw to check levels and everything will be fine... Here's hoping

Until later
~J

Thursday, May 15, 2014

HG Awareness day!!!

This is my second one since having Baby girl.  Every day I'm so thankful for her! Not a day goes by that I don't think of how HG affected me and my family. I'm getting better every day. Almost back to normal. Still some hiccups, but damn it, life is good. 

Love, 

Monday, March 3, 2014

HG Helper and update

I was asked last week by Lyle at Beyond Morning Sickness to help out a fellow HG mom in my area. I was HONORED!! I of course said YES right away! I'm very excited to be part of this circle :) 
The HG family is so small so to continue to be a part of it is great!! 

Update on the Fam: chitlin is still loving school and we started her in swim lessons!! She loves it!! Baby girl is 10 months and taking steps here and there by herself!!! I think about where I was a year ago....what a difference!!! Hubby is doing well. And Me, yes Me!!! I'm hanging in there!! :D I'm working full time and making it through the days! I am happy and working through my continued anxiety. I once read it takes 3 months to heal from HG for every month you are sick!! Well if that is the case of the 27 months I have 10 down!!! :) 
BRING IT YEOTCHES!!!! 

I also have just joined a local HG group. Who knew there are/were others out there sooo close to me!!! Yay we are not alone :) high five girlies!!! We did it!!! 

Until later
~J 

Sunday, January 26, 2014

GI virus??? Food poisoning??? The world hates me???

This weekend was supposed to be ALL about fun!! Going to an indoor water park with family and friends, and a friend's daughters 1st bday party!!! Did we make it??? Nope! Why??? Cuz I'm on the shitter. Yep, u read that right!!! I'm on the shitter. Most of the time I'm not sure which end it will be coming from so I decided that Chitlin's bathroom is best since the tub is right close and I can do both as needed. Which......I've needed. Anywho......the reason for this post is to talk about PTSD. Now, I haven't been Dx with PTSD, but I can tell you after spending all this time BACK in the bathroom, I can relate all to well. Not only am I physically sick, but mentally I'm a wreck!!!
When I first started heaving I went into flight or fight mode and tears started streaming down my face. This was happening, and it was happening RIGHT NOW!!! I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. There was NO WAY I was puking in that toilet so in the sink it went!! Horrible!! I started burning up!!! I started shaking, the tears were flowing and I was scared for my life. Chitlin actually said, "dad, ma's puking....AGAIN!!! It's been forever, come help her!" I about died right there!!! 
Hubby helped me get calmed down, helped with the kids AND scrubbed the toilet spotless for me!! Thank god!! I ended up needing it 1 more time, then realized, I'd be using chiltlin's bathroom! Lol 
The fear that came over me, the utter panic, it was..., I don't know, I can't even put words to it. Poorly described it was scary. I hope this gi crap passes soon cuz quite frankly, I don't want to keep feeling this way!!!

Happy thoughts!!

Until tmrw
~J