I would like to take this time to say thank you to all my blog readers. I hope that my blog is in someway entertaining, let alone informative. Granted, my HG could be WORSE (can you imagine--I am knocking on wood here I don't nose dive), but it is my family, my friends/readers, that keep me posting away and help me get through these difficult times.
I was thinking today that I wish I would have started this blog earlier. Earlier when I was having my toughest days, my days when I would lay in bed in the dark with nothing on, the door closed and I would just pray that I would wake up from this horrible dream that I was living. It then dawned on me that I wouldn't be able to have started my blog then. I was too sick. I couldn't DO anything. This was the time that I was not eating, not drinking, not going to work, not driving, unable to care for my daughter. Life was over as I knew it. And all this time, My OB wouldn't give me IV fluid and would tell me "It will get better...blah blah blah" I'm glad that I have switched OBs and I am confident that I made the right decision. I know that it is "late" in my HG being 17 weeks (almost 18 but who is counting? ME) But I know that IV fluids will still benefit me and will help me continue to keep my nutrition where it needs to be for the baby and me.
So I am glad that I wasn't able to start my Blog that early, I am glad I started in only a few short weeks ago. I am happy to be able to share my life with you all. I am happy that I have an outlet. Despite all the "darkness" that has surrounded me so far in this MUCH WANTED AND VERY PLANNED pregnancy there is light all the way through the tunnel; my family, my friends/readers, my co-workers, fellow bloggers, fellow hyperemesis suffers, and many more.
I am thankful for each and everyone of you helping me through my journey. I don't know how I will ever be able to pay you all back. Love to you all.
Until Later (December!!! Can you believe it? Tomorrow is December!)
~J
Friday, November 30, 2012
Why OH WHY Did I Eat That Piece of Pizza?!?!
I SHOULD NEVER HAVE EATEN THAT PIZZA!!! I was already full on my perfect bland supper of noodles and part of a chicken breast...WHY did the hubs have to make a frozen pizza???I know how this is going to end. IT has already started!! my left arm is getting tight and numb. That is a DEAD give away for vomiting!!! it will happen. My stomach is already doing flips, and the diarrhea has started. SO really.....within the next hour-few hours (probably sooner) I will be sitting on the toilet crapping up a storm while vomiting into the garbage can. UGH I am an IDIOT!
I am not okay with this because it is causing my anxiety to be heightened. It isn't amounting to anything yet as I know what the cause is...BUT STILL..... I AM AN IDIOT!!! okay.... stay tuned for some awesome posts about some not so awesome puking and freaking out later.
Yay Friday night! UGH STUPID!
Until Later
~J
I am not okay with this because it is causing my anxiety to be heightened. It isn't amounting to anything yet as I know what the cause is...BUT STILL..... I AM AN IDIOT!!! okay.... stay tuned for some awesome posts about some not so awesome puking and freaking out later.
Yay Friday night! UGH STUPID!
Until Later
~J
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Anxiety Really is an Evil Beast!
I know I am not going to die. Realistically the chances are a bajillion to 1. But yet when anxiety deals u a shitty hand, you feel like u could die at any momenent. I worry that when I go to sleep I wont wake up. I worry that my hubby Oe worse yet my chitlin will find me in the morning. Ugh!! Such horrible thoughts!!! "Normal" people don't have these thoughts. Hell I don't think about it at all when I'm having a good day with little to no HG symptoms. But when the HG takes off and the anxiety says, "Hey u little witch, u forgot about me!!" Then things come crashing down pretty fast. I've already had 1 anxiety attack tonight and I'm on the verge of a second. Hence the second post. I'm working through it. It will pass, and tmrw I will be fine. It just amazes me what stupid games ur mind can play on u. I'm tired but yet insomnia wont let me sleep. I tried counting, but really it doesnt help. Going to sign off, turn my meditation app on and see what I can do. A quick spirituaal prayer first and a hello to my grandma.
The world is a vampire. Free tupperware to whoever comments on that song lyric first LOL.
PS I'm posting from my kindle since I have a sleep tracker on my ipod. Damn thing is amazing! It knows when ubare awake, it knows when ubare sleeping....damn thing is like Santa! Anyway if there are spelling mistakes or duplicate words or words that just don't make sense....its not my fault. Blame the electronics.
Until Later
~J
Anxiety Decides to Vist Tonight
Oh anxiety how I have missed u. NOT! Oh, how I have missed the rapid heartbeat, the fast breathing, the spinning, the dry heaves, and the hoping that I don't spend the night in the bathroom.
How did I even get this far? It snuck up so fast!! Ugh!!! My counselor suggested when it comes up this fast to run my hand under cold water to help slows heart rate. Surprisingly it helps. Splashing my face works too, but I didn't do that tonight. Ahhh I hate this!!
Turn on the heating pad for my back, turn on my relax melodies close my eyes and hope it goes away
Until Later
~J
How did I even get this far? It snuck up so fast!! Ugh!!! My counselor suggested when it comes up this fast to run my hand under cold water to help slows heart rate. Surprisingly it helps. Splashing my face works too, but I didn't do that tonight. Ahhh I hate this!!
Turn on the heating pad for my back, turn on my relax melodies close my eyes and hope it goes away
Until Later
~J
Weigh-in and Breakfast
Today I went to the new OB's office for my weigh-in. I gotta tell ya...I was SUPER excited to see that I had maintained!!! I DID NOT lose more weight! YAHOOOOO!!!!!
I was so excited that I decided to take the Chitlin' to breakfast. We went to the local diner. As soon as we walked in and I only saw one waitress, I should have walked right out. SHOULD HAVE WALKED OUT. I didn't tho. I wanted to celebrate with the chitlin that I didn't lose!! Plus by this time chitlin had already scammed out the ice cream counter and was DYING for ice cream. Yes it was 9:45am!
We finally got seated after 5 mins of waiting. I had to pull up a chair from one of the empty tables. I got a couple stink eyes from the elderly regulars. PFFFT to you!
We sat down and waited, and waited, and waited, and waited, did i mention we waited. Finally my chitlin turns to the back of the restaurant and says (screams), "Excuse me, can i get my mickey mouse pancake yet?!" God, I love this kid!!!
The waitress came over and got our orders and then we waited more. By this time, i was getting really nauseous and was debating just telling the waitress (whenever she came back) to get them to go). The room started spinning a little. not a lot, real slow motion like. This is new, kind of freaked me out. I told the chitlin we might have to leave and she was actually okay with it. As I turned to wave down the waitress she was bringing the food.
I told myself to try and make it through take a few bites and maybe I would feel better. Chitlin was VERY disappointed in her Mickey Mouse pancake. I kind of was too. they didn't put a face or anything on it. but I cut it up for her and gave her "grape" (blackberry) syrup and she took a few bites then started eating my scrambled eggs and hash browns. LOL!!! She even offered to ..."trade plates with me mom" So I did. I gotta admit, eating all those carbs helped! I didn't feel dizzy, but was still feeling nauseous. When she came back we I asked for the bill and to go containers. I wondered if i looked "green" because she came RIGHT BACK! LOL!!!
Paid the bill, and headed home. Got home and had to lay down. I was exhausted. I went over my 2 hour limit of being upright. It happens EVERY TIME.
Hope this passes. But I gotta say, even with the little minor setbacks, it was a successful morning!
I have been in bed since we got home. But that is okay. =-) I didn't lose weight this week and I ate pancakes!!
Until Later
~J
I was so excited that I decided to take the Chitlin' to breakfast. We went to the local diner. As soon as we walked in and I only saw one waitress, I should have walked right out. SHOULD HAVE WALKED OUT. I didn't tho. I wanted to celebrate with the chitlin that I didn't lose!! Plus by this time chitlin had already scammed out the ice cream counter and was DYING for ice cream. Yes it was 9:45am!
We finally got seated after 5 mins of waiting. I had to pull up a chair from one of the empty tables. I got a couple stink eyes from the elderly regulars. PFFFT to you!
We sat down and waited, and waited, and waited, and waited, did i mention we waited. Finally my chitlin turns to the back of the restaurant and says (screams), "Excuse me, can i get my mickey mouse pancake yet?!" God, I love this kid!!!
The waitress came over and got our orders and then we waited more. By this time, i was getting really nauseous and was debating just telling the waitress (whenever she came back) to get them to go). The room started spinning a little. not a lot, real slow motion like. This is new, kind of freaked me out. I told the chitlin we might have to leave and she was actually okay with it. As I turned to wave down the waitress she was bringing the food.
I told myself to try and make it through take a few bites and maybe I would feel better. Chitlin was VERY disappointed in her Mickey Mouse pancake. I kind of was too. they didn't put a face or anything on it. but I cut it up for her and gave her "grape" (blackberry) syrup and she took a few bites then started eating my scrambled eggs and hash browns. LOL!!! She even offered to ..."trade plates with me mom" So I did. I gotta admit, eating all those carbs helped! I didn't feel dizzy, but was still feeling nauseous. When she came back we I asked for the bill and to go containers. I wondered if i looked "green" because she came RIGHT BACK! LOL!!!
Paid the bill, and headed home. Got home and had to lay down. I was exhausted. I went over my 2 hour limit of being upright. It happens EVERY TIME.
Hope this passes. But I gotta say, even with the little minor setbacks, it was a successful morning!
I have been in bed since we got home. But that is okay. =-) I didn't lose weight this week and I ate pancakes!!
Until Later
~J
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Washed The Bedding
So, with HG ur sense of smell is heightened to like the thousandth power!! Not even joking! So today I just couldn't handle the "sleep-body" smell on my pillows. I'd say our pillows but the hubby is still on the couch so I can sleep :) <3
After 30 mins I got everything stripped. Needed LOTS of breaks. When taking the pillowcases off the smell was IN the pillows!!! Great!! Now I have to wash the pillows! I figured we have a front loader no worries. 2 pillows at a time and 6 pillows....u do the math. I ALSO thought the best way to get rid of this smell was bleach.
Bleach DID get the "sleep-body" smell out!! Yay, but NOW they stink like BLEACH! I'm an idiot.
I do have to say they smell better then they did before.
I was so exhausted from stripping the bed I just left it all on the bed and when the hubs came home he made the bed for me and put his stuff on the couch! Poor guy!
Until Later
~J
Oh PS weigh in tmrw at the new OB. Ill let u know how it goes
After 30 mins I got everything stripped. Needed LOTS of breaks. When taking the pillowcases off the smell was IN the pillows!!! Great!! Now I have to wash the pillows! I figured we have a front loader no worries. 2 pillows at a time and 6 pillows....u do the math. I ALSO thought the best way to get rid of this smell was bleach.
Bleach DID get the "sleep-body" smell out!! Yay, but NOW they stink like BLEACH! I'm an idiot.
I do have to say they smell better then they did before.
I was so exhausted from stripping the bed I just left it all on the bed and when the hubs came home he made the bed for me and put his stuff on the couch! Poor guy!
Until Later
~J
Oh PS weigh in tmrw at the new OB. Ill let u know how it goes
Knock Off Brand Ensure
Omg what was I thinking??? I drank a Walgreens brand Ensure this morning. Took me awhile but I got it down, I am sooooo sick!!! My stomach is churning and forget about constipation! That went bye bye an hour ago! I am so Pukey right now and my throat has this horrible coating on it still! Ugh!!! GROSS!!! I don't even know what I can do to get the taste out of my mouth!! I drank it 3 hours ago!!!
*note to self NO MORE ENSURE. I need to go to sleep so when I wake up I can hope that these horrible feelings have passed and they aren't stacked on my already gross feelings I have everyday!
Until Later
~J
*note to self NO MORE ENSURE. I need to go to sleep so when I wake up I can hope that these horrible feelings have passed and they aren't stacked on my already gross feelings I have everyday!
Until Later
~J
Dizziness....and NO Not Because I'm Blonde
I woke up this morning and the room was already spinning! How can that be?? I JUST opened my eyes!! I guess I am going to blame it on the lack of sleep last night. I slept very poorly. I would be in a deep sleep for what seemed like FOREVER....but I would JOLT awake and it would be 20-45 later from the last time I was jolted awake. When the alarm went off this morning I didn't believe it. But I opened 1 eye and yep it was time.
I turned the alarm off and was getting ready to snuggle back in bed with my eyes closed so the room would stop spinning. Just as I was ready to doze back off little chitlin came in to talk. I told her it was snuggle time and that 4 year old snuggled right in and was quiet as can be. She fell back asleep, and my body is stuck in an awkward position. Lol gonna finish this entry and try to fall back asleep. Surprisingly closing one eye helps to not have the room spin.
Until Later
~J
I turned the alarm off and was getting ready to snuggle back in bed with my eyes closed so the room would stop spinning. Just as I was ready to doze back off little chitlin came in to talk. I told her it was snuggle time and that 4 year old snuggled right in and was quiet as can be. She fell back asleep, and my body is stuck in an awkward position. Lol gonna finish this entry and try to fall back asleep. Surprisingly closing one eye helps to not have the room spin.
Until Later
~J
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Hope this works!!! I'm practically in tears!!!
Please please please tell me this is working now!!! Please!!! I want my Blog back!!!
Blogger.....Google+ What The Heck Happened?
Somehow I got switched from Blogger (where I can post from my ipod) to Google+ and I can't post to my blog from Blogger!!!! What happened??? I HAVE TO BE ABLE TO POST FROM MY ipod!!! UGH!!!???add it to me feeling like crap and this has just been a craptastic day!
PPPFFFFT!
Until Later
~J
PPPFFFFT!
Until Later
~J
Nausea....NAUSEA.....Can't I Just Puke and Get This Over WIth??
Dictionary.com defines nausea as:
nau·se·a
[naw-zee-uh, -zhuh, -see-uh, -shuh]
1. sickness at the stomach, especially when accompanied by a loathing for food and an involuntary impulse to vomit.
2. extreme disgust; loathing; repugnance.
My definition of NAUSEA
Please just let me puke already (but not too many times), to get this horrid feeling over and done with. Oh wait, you mean after I puke I will still feel this way?? you mean, even if I force myself to sip some liquids or eat something I will still feel this way? Waaaaaait a minute....are you kidding me? what about if i DON'T eat anything??? I'll still feel this way? Cripes! Can't i do ANYTHING to get rid of this 24/7, 10 times worse than your worst hangover Nausea! GAH!!!!!!
And that is my definition of nausea...also known as the Devil's Spawn.
Zofran you are failing me today....I am not okay with this.
Baby Name....
We have a boy and girl name picked out. WE like the names WE picked. That is all.
Until Later
~J
Until Later
~J
Monday, November 26, 2012
I Did Too Much Today
I am sad to say, I did too much today and I BARELY did anything *Big Sad Face* I got ready at 6:45am to get my daughter off to 4k and then I went to my other job working with children in the early childhood program with visual impairments. It was the first time I had been there in 2 weeks. My goal today was to make it an hour.
I did make it the hour. It started out good, but after 45 mins I could feel myself losing steam, getting nauseous, lightheaded, and a little shaky. I stuck it out for 1 hour and 15 mins. I was sooo happy to see my friends and coworkers and the kiddos. There were only 2 of them there but it was good to see everyone!!
The realization set in tho that if the HG continues and doesn't let up, I'm not going to be able to keep working there. *Big Sad Face* I am not okay with that, but I have to be if it comes to it.
After that I came home and napped, only to be rudely awoke by a darn automated message that I couldn't even understand!
Then up to work my COTA magic for a kiddo and pick up my chitlin' at daycare. After picking her up we needed to make a mad dash to the hospital for a med records release for my new OB AND to have my chitlin get a UA done.
We made it 5 mins before 5 for med records and right at 5 for the UA. I was winded and exhausted from sprinting from floor to floor.
The lab lady was SOOOO nice to turn her computer back on at 5 pm just so chitlin could pee in a toilet hat and have me pour it in a cup. Chitlin was relieved she didn't have to pee in the cup!!! So was I!!
Drove home, changed into my comfy clothes and crawled in bed. Here I lay, exhausted, sore, headache ensuing, and just done. Waiting for 730 so I can take my meds and go to bed. Another day of work tmrw. Not sure how long I can keep it up.
Until Later
~J
I did make it the hour. It started out good, but after 45 mins I could feel myself losing steam, getting nauseous, lightheaded, and a little shaky. I stuck it out for 1 hour and 15 mins. I was sooo happy to see my friends and coworkers and the kiddos. There were only 2 of them there but it was good to see everyone!!
The realization set in tho that if the HG continues and doesn't let up, I'm not going to be able to keep working there. *Big Sad Face* I am not okay with that, but I have to be if it comes to it.
After that I came home and napped, only to be rudely awoke by a darn automated message that I couldn't even understand!
Then up to work my COTA magic for a kiddo and pick up my chitlin' at daycare. After picking her up we needed to make a mad dash to the hospital for a med records release for my new OB AND to have my chitlin get a UA done.
We made it 5 mins before 5 for med records and right at 5 for the UA. I was winded and exhausted from sprinting from floor to floor.
The lab lady was SOOOO nice to turn her computer back on at 5 pm just so chitlin could pee in a toilet hat and have me pour it in a cup. Chitlin was relieved she didn't have to pee in the cup!!! So was I!!
Drove home, changed into my comfy clothes and crawled in bed. Here I lay, exhausted, sore, headache ensuing, and just done. Waiting for 730 so I can take my meds and go to bed. Another day of work tmrw. Not sure how long I can keep it up.
Until Later
~J
Give Me a C. O. N. S. tipation (that took too long, but it was clever!)
Not too much to explain....Zofran=constipation AND headaches! Also, lack of food, lack of movement, iron supplements...what else can I add to the list??!
The picture is my view while using the facilities. The dreaded bathroom scale!!! I hate that damn thing! Actually I like that ONE because it is an actual tile. Really heavy duty, nice :) it's scales in general I despise!
I also despise toilet seats! They aren't meant to be sat on for long periods of time!
No wonder kiddie training seats that fit onto toilets are squishy!! I get it now!
I really just need to get over the I don't want to take too many pills thing and buy some darn colace. Well, that's what everyone suggests. I think it's on the okay list. I gotta check it out again.
And when ur body gives u the SLIGHTEST hint it MIGHT be ready to go....you don't chance it! U just go and u sit and u wait, and ur legs fall asleep. Then u holler to the hubs to bring dear daughter's step stool in so ur legs are up higher and don't fall asleep as fast! Well, that's what I do anyway! Lol he brings it to me shaking his head, "Again?!" He says. "Always" I reply.
Until Later
~J
The picture is my view while using the facilities. The dreaded bathroom scale!!! I hate that damn thing! Actually I like that ONE because it is an actual tile. Really heavy duty, nice :) it's scales in general I despise!
I also despise toilet seats! They aren't meant to be sat on for long periods of time!
No wonder kiddie training seats that fit onto toilets are squishy!! I get it now!
I really just need to get over the I don't want to take too many pills thing and buy some darn colace. Well, that's what everyone suggests. I think it's on the okay list. I gotta check it out again.
And when ur body gives u the SLIGHTEST hint it MIGHT be ready to go....you don't chance it! U just go and u sit and u wait, and ur legs fall asleep. Then u holler to the hubs to bring dear daughter's step stool in so ur legs are up higher and don't fall asleep as fast! Well, that's what I do anyway! Lol he brings it to me shaking his head, "Again?!" He says. "Always" I reply.
Until Later
~J
Sunday, November 25, 2012
The Hubby.....and Friends
The Hubs is amazing, and is sleeping on the couch for me so I can get some much needed undisturbed sleep. He even dug out an old alarm clock from the basement so we can wake up for work. LOL!!! The sacrifices huh?
Friends!!! You are the best!!!! (family you are too, but this is a friends post tonight)
I dedicate this post to you all!!! Old and New!!!
(((HUGS)))
What would you do if I sang out tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
I will try not to sing out of key, yeah
Oh, baby I get by with a little help from my friends
By with a little help from my friends.
All I need is my buddies
By with a little help from my friends
I said I'm gonna get by with a little
By with a little help from my friends
Whoa oh oh oh oh
Said I don't know if that's what I'm sure do to, baby
By with a little help from my friends
Said I'm gonna make it with my friends
By with a little help from my friends
Whoa oh I'm gonna keep on trying
By with a little help from my friends
Said I'm gonna keep on trying.
source: http://www.lyricsondemand.com/
Friends!!! You are the best!!!! (family you are too, but this is a friends post tonight)
I dedicate this post to you all!!! Old and New!!!
(((HUGS)))
What would you do if I sang out tune?
Would you stand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
I will try not to sing out of key, yeah
Oh, baby I get by with a little help from my friends
By with a little help from my friends.
All I need is my buddies
By with a little help from my friends
I said I'm gonna get by with a little
By with a little help from my friends
Whoa oh oh oh oh
Said I don't know if that's what I'm sure do to, baby
By with a little help from my friends
Said I'm gonna make it with my friends
By with a little help from my friends
Whoa oh I'm gonna keep on trying
By with a little help from my friends
Said I'm gonna keep on trying.
source: http://www.lyricsondemand.com/
Root Beer
Can one live on root beer?? I'm willing to try and see. As much as I LOVE it cold, it goes down MUCH easier warm. Thanks to the hubs for picking this up for me tonight! Xoxo
Links to Other HG Blogs
I just did a quick goggle search for other HG Blogs. Some I have read, others I haven't had a chance to yet, but I will!! I thought I would share with you all as well!
Enjoy!
Until Later
~J
Prisoner in my own body (How could I forget this one!!! Had to add it in!!!)
My Hyperemesis Gravidarum Story (another one I found to add in)
Living Dead Girl
Its A Crazy (good) Life
Do I Smell Like Acetone??
Today is the end of the pay period at work, which means I literally drag myself into work to check my time card. I did not shower today, I didn't even brush my hair or teeth. I threw on my favorite winter hat and my favorite hoodie and proceeded to head the 27 mins to work. Yes, I drove, but I continually found my thoughts drifting off about sleeping, being in my warm bed, and hoping to hell I don't run into anyone at work. (I did run into one of my favorite people at work, so it made the trip worth it.) Walgreen's is on the way to my work, so i swung through the drive-thru and dropped off my script for my beloved Zofran.
Where I work, there is no "close" parking. You have to walk a ways. And when you are preggers and have HG the "ways" seems like miles! It took me a good 10 mins to walk to the office, but I did it. I got some things done along with checking my time card. I chatted with my friend who stopped in to check her time card too. Then headed to get my script.
As I was driving to Walgreen's it occurred to me that my OLD OB never once mentioned anything to me about spilling keytones into my urine, but the multiple times I have gone to the ER they have always mentioned it. I decided I was going to see if they had keytone strips there and if they weren't to expensive I was going to buy them.
Walgreen's what a freaking madhouse!!! It was seriously 4:30pm on a Sunday and you would have thought it was Black Friday!!! As I entered i started second guessing my decision. I pulled my winter hat down a little further and adjusted my sweatshirt ( i wasn't wearing a bra, had to do something!) LOL I finally make my way back to the pharmacy but before I can even go to the counter I needed to sit down. It was probably 5 mins or so, then went to the counter asked about the strips. They had them $10.59 for 50 strips. I have no idea if that is a good deal or not, but I wasn't gonna haggle or ask a million questions. I was going downhill fast. Got the strips and my script and headed to the truck.
I sat in the truck for 15 mins. I couldn't even look outside because everything was spinning by me!
HORRIBLE! I tried drinking some water but it just made me gag. I finally felt good enough to drive. I drove right home and took another 15 min break! Good lord! I'm exhausted! while I was resting i got my test strips and grabbed the directions.
1. pee in cup
2. dip strip in cup
3. wait 15 secs
4. match stick tip to the color on the outside of the vial
5. see if you are spilling keytones and what amount if you are.
I can do this. I did this. And yep, as I already knew I was spilling keytones like crazy!! it was hard to tell if it was moderate or large amount as the shade of purple was right in between.
As i mentioned in a previous post if you are spilling keytones in means your body isn't getting enough carbs and is burning fat or muscle for energy. This isn't really good! also, it makes your blood really acidic. So I looked up Ketosis on the net. Wikipedia was way above my head and I had no idea what they were talking about as they were using uber medical terms and were talking about chemical compounds. Anyway... I found an article on Medical News Today and this helped me understand it a little more. It also said that when you are in ketosis you may smell like acetone!!! as its one of the chemicals that are made. OMG??!!!! Do I smell like acetone??? that is paint thinner!! If you smell me and I smell like that you better tell me!
okay here are 2 pictures for your enjoyment.
Where I work, there is no "close" parking. You have to walk a ways. And when you are preggers and have HG the "ways" seems like miles! It took me a good 10 mins to walk to the office, but I did it. I got some things done along with checking my time card. I chatted with my friend who stopped in to check her time card too. Then headed to get my script.
As I was driving to Walgreen's it occurred to me that my OLD OB never once mentioned anything to me about spilling keytones into my urine, but the multiple times I have gone to the ER they have always mentioned it. I decided I was going to see if they had keytone strips there and if they weren't to expensive I was going to buy them.
Walgreen's what a freaking madhouse!!! It was seriously 4:30pm on a Sunday and you would have thought it was Black Friday!!! As I entered i started second guessing my decision. I pulled my winter hat down a little further and adjusted my sweatshirt ( i wasn't wearing a bra, had to do something!) LOL I finally make my way back to the pharmacy but before I can even go to the counter I needed to sit down. It was probably 5 mins or so, then went to the counter asked about the strips. They had them $10.59 for 50 strips. I have no idea if that is a good deal or not, but I wasn't gonna haggle or ask a million questions. I was going downhill fast. Got the strips and my script and headed to the truck.
I sat in the truck for 15 mins. I couldn't even look outside because everything was spinning by me!
HORRIBLE! I tried drinking some water but it just made me gag. I finally felt good enough to drive. I drove right home and took another 15 min break! Good lord! I'm exhausted! while I was resting i got my test strips and grabbed the directions.
1. pee in cup
2. dip strip in cup
3. wait 15 secs
4. match stick tip to the color on the outside of the vial
5. see if you are spilling keytones and what amount if you are.
I can do this. I did this. And yep, as I already knew I was spilling keytones like crazy!! it was hard to tell if it was moderate or large amount as the shade of purple was right in between.
As i mentioned in a previous post if you are spilling keytones in means your body isn't getting enough carbs and is burning fat or muscle for energy. This isn't really good! also, it makes your blood really acidic. So I looked up Ketosis on the net. Wikipedia was way above my head and I had no idea what they were talking about as they were using uber medical terms and were talking about chemical compounds. Anyway... I found an article on Medical News Today and this helped me understand it a little more. It also said that when you are in ketosis you may smell like acetone!!! as its one of the chemicals that are made. OMG??!!!! Do I smell like acetone??? that is paint thinner!! If you smell me and I smell like that you better tell me!
okay here are 2 pictures for your enjoyment.
Yes that is some of my urine in the cup. and yes it looks like apple juice! reminder: I had 2 liters of fluids yesterday....believe it or not, this is lighter than it typically is!!!
Here is my result. I think it is right in between moderate and the first large amount square. Even though i already knew I was in ketosis, it is still a shock to see how far into ketosis you are.
Tomorrow I will be calling my NEW OB tomorrow as I have a lot of things I want to talk to him about:
1. move up my appointment. I need to get in way before they scheduled for.
2. dehydration - home health IVs
3. keytones
4. meds - see if I can take it more often
5. headaches/base of skull pain/left side of body issues -eye, shoulder, bicep, and leg.
That doesn't seem like a lot does it? I will let you know how it goes.
Until Later
~J
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Life Really Does Hate Me!!! WHY???
*warning* this is gonna be a downer post without a funny spin to it! Okay there are some funny spins. I had to add something to it.
So we go to the ER. I get 2 liters of fluid and I'm feeling great! They even gave me 4mgs of IV zofran. I thought about asking for another 4 before I left but I didn't. I figured we would be home in 35 mins, no worries. WRONG!!!
As soon as I get into the car I can feel it Creepin' I just close my eyes and think, no worries I can do this, I just got 2 freaking liters of fluid I should be good!!! We were approximately 1.5 miles from my parents when I needed the hubs to pull over. I was heaving so hard :x nothing would come out, I wanted to cry, tears streamed down, the drooling started! OMG is this really happening??? I am sooo over this!!! Let me say it again...SOOOOOO over this crap!!! How do women do this more than once?!?!
(Knuckle bumps, high 5s, props, cheers to u all who have). I finally stop heaving and off we got to get the chitlin. Way past her bedtime but is up I'm sure :)
We pull in the hubs runs in grabs daughter and we are headed home before I can even process we actually pulled into my parents.
Get home jump outta the car before its in park and run for the bathroom. I literally was hugging the toilet. Nothing coming up, stomach contracting, and just when u think it couldn't get any tighter, u heave 1 more time taking ur breath away. WTF happened??!!! I JUST got fluids I should feel better!
Now I should tell u I am very particular about my toilet in our bedroom. I will stand and heave and heave all the while I am disinfecting it with bleach wipes. If I vomit, then I do that first, then scrub it down. I need a clean toilet to hug!
Tonight just LOTS of dry heaves so I was able to disinfect while..... I do have to say, tonight is the first time I did actually literally hug The toilet seat. I also folded my arms on the seat and rest for about 3 mins before the heaves started again.
I try to think back on my life and think of what I ever did that was so bad that I deserved to be dealt this hand. I thought about high school and stealing silverware from Perkins, was that really that bad?? Or what about the napkin dispenser from Original Cookie... Uh, that's it, when I took that I put it under my shirt like I was preggers, so did my other friend. Ah dang it!!! Totally being punished for that!!! What else could have it been??????
After I got done hugging the porcelain I got up and took a whole zofran. I thought about taking a full unisom and B6 as well but I didn't wanna be out of it tomorrow . That's what happened last time I took a whole one. I felt like I was walking around in a haze.
Anyway, took the meds, turned on my heating pad, laying on my left side blogging like a fool. I'm totally going to get texter's thumb or whatever they call the new fandangled issues that come up with iPod and cell phone use.
I'm feeling the anxiety hanging over me just waiting for me to make the wrong move so it can sink its vicious fangs in me. Ha, little does it know, I'm not going to let it. ( fingers crossed for me)
Gonna turn my relax melodies and try and sleep. The hubs just made a pizza and the smell is intoxicating!!! GROSS!
Omg! I almost forgot, my urinalysis had bacteria in it and skin cells. The doc didn't know if it was from inside or out, so they are going to culture it. I'm hoping I did okay on the "clean catch" method as I do UAs a lot. I'm kinda good at them. She also told me my urine looked like apple cider. I laughed, it was lighter today than it usually is. She then told me she was glad I came into the ER. I told her I was too.
Okay bloggees
Until Later
~J
So we go to the ER. I get 2 liters of fluid and I'm feeling great! They even gave me 4mgs of IV zofran. I thought about asking for another 4 before I left but I didn't. I figured we would be home in 35 mins, no worries. WRONG!!!
As soon as I get into the car I can feel it Creepin' I just close my eyes and think, no worries I can do this, I just got 2 freaking liters of fluid I should be good!!! We were approximately 1.5 miles from my parents when I needed the hubs to pull over. I was heaving so hard :x nothing would come out, I wanted to cry, tears streamed down, the drooling started! OMG is this really happening??? I am sooo over this!!! Let me say it again...SOOOOOO over this crap!!! How do women do this more than once?!?!
(Knuckle bumps, high 5s, props, cheers to u all who have). I finally stop heaving and off we got to get the chitlin. Way past her bedtime but is up I'm sure :)
We pull in the hubs runs in grabs daughter and we are headed home before I can even process we actually pulled into my parents.
Get home jump outta the car before its in park and run for the bathroom. I literally was hugging the toilet. Nothing coming up, stomach contracting, and just when u think it couldn't get any tighter, u heave 1 more time taking ur breath away. WTF happened??!!! I JUST got fluids I should feel better!
Now I should tell u I am very particular about my toilet in our bedroom. I will stand and heave and heave all the while I am disinfecting it with bleach wipes. If I vomit, then I do that first, then scrub it down. I need a clean toilet to hug!
Tonight just LOTS of dry heaves so I was able to disinfect while..... I do have to say, tonight is the first time I did actually literally hug The toilet seat. I also folded my arms on the seat and rest for about 3 mins before the heaves started again.
I try to think back on my life and think of what I ever did that was so bad that I deserved to be dealt this hand. I thought about high school and stealing silverware from Perkins, was that really that bad?? Or what about the napkin dispenser from Original Cookie... Uh, that's it, when I took that I put it under my shirt like I was preggers, so did my other friend. Ah dang it!!! Totally being punished for that!!! What else could have it been??????
After I got done hugging the porcelain I got up and took a whole zofran. I thought about taking a full unisom and B6 as well but I didn't wanna be out of it tomorrow . That's what happened last time I took a whole one. I felt like I was walking around in a haze.
Anyway, took the meds, turned on my heating pad, laying on my left side blogging like a fool. I'm totally going to get texter's thumb or whatever they call the new fandangled issues that come up with iPod and cell phone use.
I'm feeling the anxiety hanging over me just waiting for me to make the wrong move so it can sink its vicious fangs in me. Ha, little does it know, I'm not going to let it. ( fingers crossed for me)
Gonna turn my relax melodies and try and sleep. The hubs just made a pizza and the smell is intoxicating!!! GROSS!
Omg! I almost forgot, my urinalysis had bacteria in it and skin cells. The doc didn't know if it was from inside or out, so they are going to culture it. I'm hoping I did okay on the "clean catch" method as I do UAs a lot. I'm kinda good at them. She also told me my urine looked like apple cider. I laughed, it was lighter today than it usually is. She then told me she was glad I came into the ER. I told her I was too.
Okay bloggees
Until Later
~J
ER Visit All IV All the Time
Well, here I sit at the ER. I gotta admit, they are GOOD here!!! I decided to go to the ER in the Big City. Hubby wasn't impressed with that decision at first as its about 45 mins in the opposite direction of my parents house (we had to drop the chitlin' off)
But once we got here, he was impressed. I got in right away! I didn't even get a chance to sit down.
Maybe it is because I may have scared the guy at the check in desk.
"Yes, I need to be seen. I'm 16+weeks pregnant and have Hyperemisis Gravidarum I need IV fluids."
"Um, okay, so u r pregnant."
"Yep, and I need an IV."
No sooner did I say that a Triage nurse came out and took us back. The ER doc met us in the room, I explained what I needed and she said, "Okay, sounds good to me." I couldn't believe it!! Someone actually listened to me!! Awesome!!!
The hubs got comfy in his usual spot, the extra chair. He closed his eyes and he was out. Still is, although he keeps trying to get comfy. It really isn't working for him. I feel bad. He said he had plans tonight with a friend. Oops!! Guess I blew that for him. I'd post a pix of him trying to get comfy but I don't wanna make him mad. Lol
They got my IV started right away, it's done now. I'm just waiting for my urinalysis to come back. Then they will decide if I need more or not.
They have TVs in the rooms. They are TINY I will see if I can post two pictures at a time. I'm posting from my iPod. It's on this metal swing arm. Kinda scared the TV might fall off the end. Lol
The nurses have been great and I'm glad I have had such a positive experience so far. This is where I plan on delivering the babers!!
Oh I almost forgot, we got to hear the heartbeat too between 130-140. Pretty strong they said. Took the poor nurse about 10 mins to find the little stinker!! Kept swimming away!! This babers sure doesn't like ultrasounds :) disturbs its sleep I guess!
Ok, will update after
Until Later
~J
But once we got here, he was impressed. I got in right away! I didn't even get a chance to sit down.
Maybe it is because I may have scared the guy at the check in desk.
"Yes, I need to be seen. I'm 16+weeks pregnant and have Hyperemisis Gravidarum I need IV fluids."
"Um, okay, so u r pregnant."
"Yep, and I need an IV."
No sooner did I say that a Triage nurse came out and took us back. The ER doc met us in the room, I explained what I needed and she said, "Okay, sounds good to me." I couldn't believe it!! Someone actually listened to me!! Awesome!!!
The hubs got comfy in his usual spot, the extra chair. He closed his eyes and he was out. Still is, although he keeps trying to get comfy. It really isn't working for him. I feel bad. He said he had plans tonight with a friend. Oops!! Guess I blew that for him. I'd post a pix of him trying to get comfy but I don't wanna make him mad. Lol
They got my IV started right away, it's done now. I'm just waiting for my urinalysis to come back. Then they will decide if I need more or not.
They have TVs in the rooms. They are TINY I will see if I can post two pictures at a time. I'm posting from my iPod. It's on this metal swing arm. Kinda scared the TV might fall off the end. Lol
The nurses have been great and I'm glad I have had such a positive experience so far. This is where I plan on delivering the babers!!
Oh I almost forgot, we got to hear the heartbeat too between 130-140. Pretty strong they said. Took the poor nurse about 10 mins to find the little stinker!! Kept swimming away!! This babers sure doesn't like ultrasounds :) disturbs its sleep I guess!
Ok, will update after
Until Later
~J
It WAS a Good Day.
Lord, please take me now. I just want this all to be done with. (No, I really don't want to die, but compared to how I feel right at this moment....I would welcome a coma maybe??)
I ate cereal for breakfast, I helped clean the office. We REALLY need to get that organized before baby comes!!! I ate lunch with the daughter turkey sandwich and corn. Oh and a glass of juice. I was feeling REALLY good.
I started to think if I took my Zofran at noon. I'm pretty sure I did, but I can't be sure! (This is a HUGE problem) I typically write all this down.
I was actually sitting in the living room with my daughter watching tv with her it was so nice.
Then it happened.....a cold shot down my arm, the heart palpitations..... Uh oh.... Anxiety hits.....and off I go running to the bathroom dry heaving on the way there!!! My daughter yelling to me, "Mom are u gonna puke? Are u gonna get sick again?? Mom do I need to call dad?"
I get to the bathroom and nothing comes out. Did I take my Zofran or not??? Damn it, why can't I remember??? I'm heaving, the anxiety is so much I start crying, I'm drooling, and heaving over the toilet. (Attractive huh??)
My stomach finally stops contracting, I slow my tears to quiet sobs, I wipe my mouth and rinse with water. (Don't brush after vomiting it ruins ur teeth).
While I am having a one woman show in the bathroom (oh that sounds wrong) my daughter got her blanket climbed up on our bed and waited until I was done. Once I was done she asked if she could watch a movie with me in bed. (For 4 years old this girl knows what's happening, and knows just what I need).
I get the movie set, she climbs in bed, I turn on my heating pad, and climb in bed. I'm laying on my left side, massaging the bottom of my skull waiting for the nausea to pass. Lord, PLEASE have it pass NOW!!! My anxiety is on the verge of another attack but so far so good. Typing, heat on my shoulder, and distraction are helping. I've decided I am going to take my Zofran at 300 just incase I did or didn't take it at noon. Why can't I remember???
Calling the doc on Monday to see if I can move up my appointment. I need to talk to him ASAP.
Until Later
~J
I ate cereal for breakfast, I helped clean the office. We REALLY need to get that organized before baby comes!!! I ate lunch with the daughter turkey sandwich and corn. Oh and a glass of juice. I was feeling REALLY good.
I started to think if I took my Zofran at noon. I'm pretty sure I did, but I can't be sure! (This is a HUGE problem) I typically write all this down.
I was actually sitting in the living room with my daughter watching tv with her it was so nice.
Then it happened.....a cold shot down my arm, the heart palpitations..... Uh oh.... Anxiety hits.....and off I go running to the bathroom dry heaving on the way there!!! My daughter yelling to me, "Mom are u gonna puke? Are u gonna get sick again?? Mom do I need to call dad?"
I get to the bathroom and nothing comes out. Did I take my Zofran or not??? Damn it, why can't I remember??? I'm heaving, the anxiety is so much I start crying, I'm drooling, and heaving over the toilet. (Attractive huh??)
My stomach finally stops contracting, I slow my tears to quiet sobs, I wipe my mouth and rinse with water. (Don't brush after vomiting it ruins ur teeth).
While I am having a one woman show in the bathroom (oh that sounds wrong) my daughter got her blanket climbed up on our bed and waited until I was done. Once I was done she asked if she could watch a movie with me in bed. (For 4 years old this girl knows what's happening, and knows just what I need).
I get the movie set, she climbs in bed, I turn on my heating pad, and climb in bed. I'm laying on my left side, massaging the bottom of my skull waiting for the nausea to pass. Lord, PLEASE have it pass NOW!!! My anxiety is on the verge of another attack but so far so good. Typing, heat on my shoulder, and distraction are helping. I've decided I am going to take my Zofran at 300 just incase I did or didn't take it at noon. Why can't I remember???
Calling the doc on Monday to see if I can move up my appointment. I need to talk to him ASAP.
Until Later
~J
Friday, November 23, 2012
Ice Chips and Headaches (No, they aren't related)
ICE CHIPS
So, I am really trying to increase my fluid intake. I am trying EVERYTHING I can to get fluids. So naturally I decided on ice chips today. So far I have gotten 2 cups of ice chips down. Not exactly sure what that is in melted ice chips....Prolly about 1/2 cup! LOL Better than nothing. I haven't had the urge to vomit so that is good. I also had a good GLUG of A&W Root beer. It was so good and spicy. I told the hubs we need to start making root beer ice cubes! Oh that would be good! Now for the hubs to buy some more root beer. Still working on the plain old water. =X Im sure it will start to get better and I can drink more.
Today I also ate a turkey sandwich and 2 chicken strips, along with the graham crackers and the string cheese. I may be on the mend, but there is NO WAY I am even going to THINK this as I don't want to jinx it!!!!
The hubs just brought me a popsicle. YUMMY!!!! I think my stomach is stretching out today! Its pretty uncomfortable, but not nauseous! HOLLA!
HEADACHES
So I have been having headaches pretty constant. Right at the bast of my skull. UGH so painful!! I know that Zofran causes headaches, but after reading another HG blog tonight My Story of Hyperemesis, I REALLY realized that my headaches are FROM the Zofran. SO.....to recap this I will introduce Captain Obvious
So, I am really trying to increase my fluid intake. I am trying EVERYTHING I can to get fluids. So naturally I decided on ice chips today. So far I have gotten 2 cups of ice chips down. Not exactly sure what that is in melted ice chips....Prolly about 1/2 cup! LOL Better than nothing. I haven't had the urge to vomit so that is good. I also had a good GLUG of A&W Root beer. It was so good and spicy. I told the hubs we need to start making root beer ice cubes! Oh that would be good! Now for the hubs to buy some more root beer. Still working on the plain old water. =X Im sure it will start to get better and I can drink more.
Today I also ate a turkey sandwich and 2 chicken strips, along with the graham crackers and the string cheese. I may be on the mend, but there is NO WAY I am even going to THINK this as I don't want to jinx it!!!!
The hubs just brought me a popsicle. YUMMY!!!! I think my stomach is stretching out today! Its pretty uncomfortable, but not nauseous! HOLLA!
HEADACHES
So I have been having headaches pretty constant. Right at the bast of my skull. UGH so painful!! I know that Zofran causes headaches, but after reading another HG blog tonight My Story of Hyperemesis, I REALLY realized that my headaches are FROM the Zofran. SO.....to recap this I will introduce Captain Obvious
My ZOFRAN is CAUSING my HEADACHES!!!!! WHO THE FRICK KNEW????
Oh yeah I DID!!!!
I really think that reading it in context from someone else's (is this right? it looks funny?) experience made it real.
Shaking my head!!! So I thank Captain Obvious for this....
Until Later
~J
Black Friday.....
No, I didn't venture out for Black Friday sales. Although now that I think about it I should have. Can you see me on that motorized cart? I'd surely run a person or 2 over! LOL! BEEP BEEP BEEP!!! watch out HG Mama coming through, not stopping for anything! DARN IT!!! I should of went!
Instead....I slept in until almost 9!!! can you believe it?! I can, only because my wonderful parents took the chitlin over night and it was wonderful! I must say having grandparents close is a Godsend!!!! In more ways than 1! i ate a little breakfast (graham crackers) and almost instantly felt sick. DARN IT!!! i need to feel good today!!! Daughter got dropped off and we whisked off to the big city. After all we had a surprise for her. (I brought a ziplock baggie just in case i needed it for the ride).
We pulled up to the building and little dear asked in her ever so sassy tone, WHAT are we doing here?!" i told her we were going to look at the baby! "Um, Mom, babies don't come from buildings!"
after taking time to explain that I was going to have an ultrasound she still seemed confused. We went to Stork Vision. I highly recommend them! Thanks to my Friend Darc for the referral! We got in in no time at all. The room was very calming and quiet and HUGE!!! We could have fit my mom's whole side of the family in there! And if you know how big that is...well....it's BIG! They had 2 big flat screens on the wall as well for viewing! GREAT!!! What the chitlin was more excited about was the play food set they had. OF COURSE!!! She would look up every now and then when we told her to and she would say "Wow that's great!" and then continue to play with the food making us various birthday cakes. One even include mushrooms! YUCK!
What they can do for ultrasounds these days is just AMAZING!!!! I was in awe the whole time! Why wouldn't you be? you are looking at your babers INSIDE of you! We were able to upgrade to the 3D pkg. HIGHLY recommend that as well! Very Cool!!! anyway.... I will be adding some pretty insane pics to the blog so you can see the little turnip. The turnip DID NOT like the ultrasound at first! LOL it was swimming back and forth trying to get away from it. Finally baby gave in and let us take some shots! Can't wait to go back in about 12 weeks to see if we can get some more fuller figure pix. At 16 weeks, babies skin is still really really thin, and you can see RIGHT through it! So by, then, the babers will have more fat and the skin won't be so thin! It is going to be GREAT!!! anyway...
I hope you all had a wonderful Black Friday!!! We sure did!
Until Later
~J
2D side view
3D view
heart beat =-)
3D baby looks like a kitten here! LOL Look at that those hands!
Instead....I slept in until almost 9!!! can you believe it?! I can, only because my wonderful parents took the chitlin over night and it was wonderful! I must say having grandparents close is a Godsend!!!! In more ways than 1! i ate a little breakfast (graham crackers) and almost instantly felt sick. DARN IT!!! i need to feel good today!!! Daughter got dropped off and we whisked off to the big city. After all we had a surprise for her. (I brought a ziplock baggie just in case i needed it for the ride).
We pulled up to the building and little dear asked in her ever so sassy tone, WHAT are we doing here?!" i told her we were going to look at the baby! "Um, Mom, babies don't come from buildings!"
after taking time to explain that I was going to have an ultrasound she still seemed confused. We went to Stork Vision. I highly recommend them! Thanks to my Friend Darc for the referral! We got in in no time at all. The room was very calming and quiet and HUGE!!! We could have fit my mom's whole side of the family in there! And if you know how big that is...well....it's BIG! They had 2 big flat screens on the wall as well for viewing! GREAT!!! What the chitlin was more excited about was the play food set they had. OF COURSE!!! She would look up every now and then when we told her to and she would say "Wow that's great!" and then continue to play with the food making us various birthday cakes. One even include mushrooms! YUCK!
What they can do for ultrasounds these days is just AMAZING!!!! I was in awe the whole time! Why wouldn't you be? you are looking at your babers INSIDE of you! We were able to upgrade to the 3D pkg. HIGHLY recommend that as well! Very Cool!!! anyway.... I will be adding some pretty insane pics to the blog so you can see the little turnip. The turnip DID NOT like the ultrasound at first! LOL it was swimming back and forth trying to get away from it. Finally baby gave in and let us take some shots! Can't wait to go back in about 12 weeks to see if we can get some more fuller figure pix. At 16 weeks, babies skin is still really really thin, and you can see RIGHT through it! So by, then, the babers will have more fat and the skin won't be so thin! It is going to be GREAT!!! anyway...
I hope you all had a wonderful Black Friday!!! We sure did!
Until Later
~J
2D side view
3D view
heart beat =-)3D baby looks like a kitten here! LOL Look at that those hands!Thursday, November 22, 2012
Gas, Gas, and more Gas!!
Wow!! Gas like no other!!! Watch out when U are around me!! Lol that is all
Until Later
~J
Until Later
~J
Turkey Day!
Gobble gobble!!! Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!
Despite all my yuckiness this week I was able to sit at the table with my mom, dad, brother, hubby, and daughter. I also was able to EAT!! :D It was glorious!! I only took VERY small helpings of turkey, potatoes, corn, cranberry sauce and a crescent roll. Oh and I had a glass of almond milk! I took my time. Small bites and sips and after awhile my plate was clean!! (I shoulda taken a picture!!!) LOL!!
The fam was very pleased. As was I :) I did feel ill after. But not too bad. Woot woot!!! I lay in the recliner for a couple hours, then we came home. I have been in bed since. Being cautious and comfortable.
The hubs asked if I needed anything and without even thinking I said hot cocoa :) He had to go to 2 gas stations to get it but he got it!! It was delicious! I was only able to take a few sips but it was good!! He surprised me with a root beer too, I am going to try it tomorrow :) no pushing my luck today!!!
While laying down I flipped on the television and instantly got sucked in to Downton Abbey season 2. How have I missed this???!!! I am surely going to have to check out season 1.
I'm exhausted. It feels like 10pm but sadly it's only 5:30!!! God I'm old!!!
Until Later
~J
Despite all my yuckiness this week I was able to sit at the table with my mom, dad, brother, hubby, and daughter. I also was able to EAT!! :D It was glorious!! I only took VERY small helpings of turkey, potatoes, corn, cranberry sauce and a crescent roll. Oh and I had a glass of almond milk! I took my time. Small bites and sips and after awhile my plate was clean!! (I shoulda taken a picture!!!) LOL!!
The fam was very pleased. As was I :) I did feel ill after. But not too bad. Woot woot!!! I lay in the recliner for a couple hours, then we came home. I have been in bed since. Being cautious and comfortable.
The hubs asked if I needed anything and without even thinking I said hot cocoa :) He had to go to 2 gas stations to get it but he got it!! It was delicious! I was only able to take a few sips but it was good!! He surprised me with a root beer too, I am going to try it tomorrow :) no pushing my luck today!!!
While laying down I flipped on the television and instantly got sucked in to Downton Abbey season 2. How have I missed this???!!! I am surely going to have to check out season 1.
I'm exhausted. It feels like 10pm but sadly it's only 5:30!!! God I'm old!!!
Until Later
~J
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Yuck
Not feeling so good today. The anxiety left Awhile ago so that's good. My arm still hurts and my back too. I'm just a big whine bag tonight so I'm not gonna make this a long post.
Going to take some meds and hope to drift into a much needed slumber.
What a crummy post! :/
I made the hubs go and get me a cheeseburger tonight ( don't judge). I had to beg him as he too hasn't eaten there in years. It tasted like crap ;p not even close to the yumminess it was the other night.
Lesson learned. No more Mickey D's.
I'm just waiting to puke this yuck up!
Until Later
~J
Going to take some meds and hope to drift into a much needed slumber.
What a crummy post! :/
I made the hubs go and get me a cheeseburger tonight ( don't judge). I had to beg him as he too hasn't eaten there in years. It tasted like crap ;p not even close to the yumminess it was the other night.
Lesson learned. No more Mickey D's.
I'm just waiting to puke this yuck up!
Until Later
~J
Anxiety on the Rise
I was really hoping I wasn't going to see anxiety's ugly face as soon as I did! :/
I have had a good couple of days without vomiting and anxiety. Today anxiety thought I missed him. BOY was he WRONG!!
My left arm is burning. It's been bothering me pretty much all morning. My old OB said my anxiety causes this. My counselor says my body is going through a lot of changes and this is one way it "deals" with the stress. I say it is residual from my "stroke like experience" that no one will believe me was really a stroke. I also believe it has to do with my dehydration. I can't wait to see my new OB. I have so many things to bring up and talk to him about. My left arm feeling like its burning isn't "normal."
Of course my anxiety has me thinking I am gonna have a stroke, heart attack,, panic attack, or worse....in all likelihood I will just have a panic attack and stress then in a few hours feel better. UGH! What a horrible cycle to go through.
The more I tell myself it's okay and I will be okay the higher my anxiety goes. It also doesn't help that I am nauseous 24/7 and as much as I love my munchkin having HG and trying to entertain her doesn't help either.
Right now is just a rough patch. Hopefully it will pass. I have a chiro appointment at 3 today hopefully she will pop whatever needs to be popped back into place.
Until Later
~J
I have had a good couple of days without vomiting and anxiety. Today anxiety thought I missed him. BOY was he WRONG!!
My left arm is burning. It's been bothering me pretty much all morning. My old OB said my anxiety causes this. My counselor says my body is going through a lot of changes and this is one way it "deals" with the stress. I say it is residual from my "stroke like experience" that no one will believe me was really a stroke. I also believe it has to do with my dehydration. I can't wait to see my new OB. I have so many things to bring up and talk to him about. My left arm feeling like its burning isn't "normal."
Of course my anxiety has me thinking I am gonna have a stroke, heart attack,, panic attack, or worse....in all likelihood I will just have a panic attack and stress then in a few hours feel better. UGH! What a horrible cycle to go through.
The more I tell myself it's okay and I will be okay the higher my anxiety goes. It also doesn't help that I am nauseous 24/7 and as much as I love my munchkin having HG and trying to entertain her doesn't help either.
Right now is just a rough patch. Hopefully it will pass. I have a chiro appointment at 3 today hopefully she will pop whatever needs to be popped back into place.
Until Later
~J
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
How Do You Lose 20# in 16 weeks??? Me...I just get pregnant!
Yes, that is sarcasm and Yes, it is true! I had my last appointment today with the "old" OB and i have lost 20 pounds since I got pg. I don't even know what to say about this except THIS IS NOT GOOD! My OB was running about 45 mins behind. For good reason, a baby was being born =D So I wasn't upset about that. I was upset that she did NOTHING about my weight loss and her Medical Assistant didn't say ANYTHING about my apple cider colored urine. She probably didn't even check it since they were running so far behind. ALSO, the other thing that freaked me out a little bit was my BP was 133/89. Which IT NEVER has been that high. I have been taking it at home and it has been averaging 98/79. ANYWAY...My old OB wanted me to make a weight check in for next week. I kindly nodded and left her office. Little does she know I will be going for a weight check, just not with her! (insert evil laugh here. No, not really, but I sorta feel that way).
I also thought I should share with you that I did in fact keep down the cheeseburger. I did have some vomiting last night, but the cheeseburger STAYED DOWN! YAHOOOO!!!!
After my OB appt I went to the cafeteria for a late snack. I figured I should try and eat since I was feeling like I could. OB office 3rd floor, Cafeteria basement. NO I DIDN"T TAKE THE STAIRS!! I took the elevator, I shoulda took the stairs. Old lady smell mixed with old spice and cigarette smoke was enough to make my knees week and I almost went down. I had to lean up against the wall, close my eyes, and breathe slooooooowly through my mouth. Once in the cafeteria I made my way to the cold sandwich line. No one was there. Man, I am tired of standing! My legs hurt, I am getting dizzy. I just want a damn sandwich! Finally i get my sandwich (bread and cheese) walk to pay for it and as I am walking to the elevators to leave I had to consciously think, "should I sit and rest or can I make it to my car?" I decided to make a beeline for it. Whew...no one in the elevator with me. Eyes closed, I can make it. I get to my car and sit. I MADE IT!
I sat for about 10 mins just resting. Put the windows down. It was beautiful out. I started taking small bites of my lunch. I was eating a lunch! IT WAS WONDERFUL!!! (yeah I know I am using a lot of caps today but I have a lot to be excited about!) I sat in the car for about 25 mins then headed to do some work at the office.
I was so happy to see my friends at work today. I was sooo nauseous but I put the smile on my face and just smiled through it. My insides were not happy, but I sure made it seem like there was nothing wrong. I miss seeing them, I miss doing work, I miss talking to adults throughout the day. Only 24 more weeks!
Feeling a little sick, gonna take my meds and try to finish this popsicle.
Until later
~J
I also thought I should share with you that I did in fact keep down the cheeseburger. I did have some vomiting last night, but the cheeseburger STAYED DOWN! YAHOOOO!!!!
After my OB appt I went to the cafeteria for a late snack. I figured I should try and eat since I was feeling like I could. OB office 3rd floor, Cafeteria basement. NO I DIDN"T TAKE THE STAIRS!! I took the elevator, I shoulda took the stairs. Old lady smell mixed with old spice and cigarette smoke was enough to make my knees week and I almost went down. I had to lean up against the wall, close my eyes, and breathe slooooooowly through my mouth. Once in the cafeteria I made my way to the cold sandwich line. No one was there. Man, I am tired of standing! My legs hurt, I am getting dizzy. I just want a damn sandwich! Finally i get my sandwich (bread and cheese) walk to pay for it and as I am walking to the elevators to leave I had to consciously think, "should I sit and rest or can I make it to my car?" I decided to make a beeline for it. Whew...no one in the elevator with me. Eyes closed, I can make it. I get to my car and sit. I MADE IT!
I sat for about 10 mins just resting. Put the windows down. It was beautiful out. I started taking small bites of my lunch. I was eating a lunch! IT WAS WONDERFUL!!! (yeah I know I am using a lot of caps today but I have a lot to be excited about!) I sat in the car for about 25 mins then headed to do some work at the office.
I was so happy to see my friends at work today. I was sooo nauseous but I put the smile on my face and just smiled through it. My insides were not happy, but I sure made it seem like there was nothing wrong. I miss seeing them, I miss doing work, I miss talking to adults throughout the day. Only 24 more weeks!
Feeling a little sick, gonna take my meds and try to finish this popsicle.
Until later
~J
Monday, November 19, 2012
I Ate McDonalds for the First Time in 8 years! Don't Judge Me!
YES....You read that title right!!! For the first time in 8 years I ate a cheeseburger from McDonalds!!! I have been craving one for a few weeks, and I thought tonight. I better give into this craving, because it just might be something I can ACTUALLY eat! It tasted sooooo good. I also tried a vanilla shake which was recommended by both my OB and my counselor. YEAH...that was not as good and actually I felt sick almost immediately! UGH way to ruin a good thing huh? Now I am just waiting to yak it all up! If I do end up tossing my cookies, I hope I can. Send me those positive vibes! (and don't judge me! LOL)
On a completely different subject I got to have 2 great conversations today! One via text which works out REALLY well when you are laying in bed waiting for the nausea to pass (which it never does!) and hoping everything stays in. EVEN when you haven't eaten anything.
The other one the phone later today. Hearing the voice of a good friend really can do wonders for the psyche? How do you spell that word? Huh? oh well, anyway....to hear some good positive news always makes me smile and lord knows I need it now!
Today somebody text me and told me that my facebook statuses are really depressing and I should try and post something not so sad or pertaining to being sick. At first I was really upset by this. It is my FREAKING Facebook and I can post whatever the hell I want. Then I thought, well yeah they seem so depressing because I have not made my pg facebook official and I don't intend to. So if people don't know what is going on it could seem that way. So, I am going to try to post non medical related posts or anything about feeling like shit. We will see how long that lasts! LOL!!!
Okay, gotta close up the laptop and laydown. I am exhausted.
until later
~J
Okay the spell checker is out of comission, please don't comment on all the spelling mistakes! LOL!!!
On a completely different subject I got to have 2 great conversations today! One via text which works out REALLY well when you are laying in bed waiting for the nausea to pass (which it never does!) and hoping everything stays in. EVEN when you haven't eaten anything.
The other one the phone later today. Hearing the voice of a good friend really can do wonders for the psyche? How do you spell that word? Huh? oh well, anyway....to hear some good positive news always makes me smile and lord knows I need it now!
Today somebody text me and told me that my facebook statuses are really depressing and I should try and post something not so sad or pertaining to being sick. At first I was really upset by this. It is my FREAKING Facebook and I can post whatever the hell I want. Then I thought, well yeah they seem so depressing because I have not made my pg facebook official and I don't intend to. So if people don't know what is going on it could seem that way. So, I am going to try to post non medical related posts or anything about feeling like shit. We will see how long that lasts! LOL!!!
Okay, gotta close up the laptop and laydown. I am exhausted.
until later
~J
Okay the spell checker is out of comission, please don't comment on all the spelling mistakes! LOL!!!
I TOOK A SHOWER!! Gosh, that was hard work!
Yes, I am so excited about taking a shower!!! It has been 3 days!!! I surprisingly didn't smell, lol but I just felt disgusting! I needed it. It took me about 15 mins to even get ready to take the shower. Sit on the side of the bed, wait until the dizziness passes. Crippledly walk to the closet to get a towel, make my way slowly to the bathroom, turn the shower on, undress, get in. (I managed to do this all without falling over!)
Oh it felt soooo good for the three minutes. I just stood there letting the water run on me. Then I needed to do work. Washing your hair is not only a time consuming task, but it takes A LOT of energy. Reach for the shampoo, squeeze the bottle, put the bottle back, rub hands together, raise arms to put shampoo in hair, move arms to get a good lather, Whew arms down for a rest. Stand while holding on to the wall of the shower (don't want to tip over) while leaning my head back. I hope that the water just runs and gets all the shampoo out, nope, lift arms to get remaining shampoo out. Whew...arms down to relax. I don't even bother putting conditioner in. Its too much work.
Get the shower pouf...get the soap....rest....have to turn the water temp down, starting to get nauseous, soap on pouf, rest, lather, forget below the knees, The water washes it just fine, sit on the bench (wow the builder was a genius for putting in a shower with these built in "chairs"), rest, gotta get out, getting nauseous, stand up slowly, turn water down a little more, rinse, and off.
Reach for towel, wrap, open curtain, put toilet seat cover down, sit and rest. 5 mins later, reach for hair dryer and half dry my hair. Holding your arms up is HARD work. It can air dry. Stand, walk to bed, sit, dry off, stand, walk to dresser, get under garments, put them on, crawl into bed and take a 45 minute nap. Yes, my life is glamorous and YES, I need to take breaks and naps while taking a shower and after a shower.
It feels good to be clean, But I am exhausted.
Until later
~J
Oh it felt soooo good for the three minutes. I just stood there letting the water run on me. Then I needed to do work. Washing your hair is not only a time consuming task, but it takes A LOT of energy. Reach for the shampoo, squeeze the bottle, put the bottle back, rub hands together, raise arms to put shampoo in hair, move arms to get a good lather, Whew arms down for a rest. Stand while holding on to the wall of the shower (don't want to tip over) while leaning my head back. I hope that the water just runs and gets all the shampoo out, nope, lift arms to get remaining shampoo out. Whew...arms down to relax. I don't even bother putting conditioner in. Its too much work.
Get the shower pouf...get the soap....rest....have to turn the water temp down, starting to get nauseous, soap on pouf, rest, lather, forget below the knees, The water washes it just fine, sit on the bench (wow the builder was a genius for putting in a shower with these built in "chairs"), rest, gotta get out, getting nauseous, stand up slowly, turn water down a little more, rinse, and off.
Reach for towel, wrap, open curtain, put toilet seat cover down, sit and rest. 5 mins later, reach for hair dryer and half dry my hair. Holding your arms up is HARD work. It can air dry. Stand, walk to bed, sit, dry off, stand, walk to dresser, get under garments, put them on, crawl into bed and take a 45 minute nap. Yes, my life is glamorous and YES, I need to take breaks and naps while taking a shower and after a shower.
It feels good to be clean, But I am exhausted.
Until later
~J
My view
So I decided I needed to try and add some "color" to this blog. Please excuse the monochromatic palate except for the TV glow. It isn't anything too exciting but it's a pix none the less! Lol!! I like to keep it dark in the room because light effects my HG.
Enjoy
~J
Enjoy
~J
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Hyperemesis Gravidarum--What is this?
Well, I posted this once already from my dumb Ipod, but operator error, and I hit cancel instead of PUBLISH! Ugh can you imagine! I was heart broke! Everything I put in the post GONE! But I guess it is okay because I am now using the laptop and I can put links in. I cant do that from the Ipod. So, Everything happens for a reason right?!
Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG)...What the heck is it?
My definition is HELL. That is what it is. Easiest way to describe it. Oh, if it were only that easy.
Beyondmorningsickness.com defines HG under the Excerpts Tab:
*"A hyperemetic mother can vomit between four and twenty (or more) times a day for months"
*"losing greater than 5% of your total body weight is one clinical indication supporting a diagnosis of severe HG."
*Dehydration
*Electrolyte imbalance
*Carbohydrate depletion and Ketonuria ---Once your body doesn't have carbs to burn for energy it starts to burn fat as well as taking energy from muscles and organs. This creates keytones. Which make your blood acidic. You are considered to be in starvation mode.
Sounds like a great time huh? NOT!
Here are some additional resources that I have used to make myself knowledgeable about HG as my OB FAILED to!
Her Foundation Hyperemesis Education and Foundation
Wikipedia
American Pregnancy Association
Baby Center ---once you sign up for your free profile you can look into the Groups, the Hyperemesis Suffers Group is amazing!
There are MANY MANY blogs as well that have a plethora of information! I wish I would have favorited (yes another "real" word!) them all so I could give you a list. Maybe I will work on that for another post.
So...this post, you have to do a little of the footwork yourself. I apologize for that, but really, everyone needs to procrastinate at some time or another. =-) Take this time to learn some info about HG and have some compassion.
Today, I vomited 10 times. And no I don't mean 10 heaves during ONE trip to the loo. No, I mean 10 SEPARATE trips to the bathroom emptying the precious contents of my belly right into the crapper. SO DEPRESSING!!! I should really just start throwing my food right into the crapper. It wouldn't HURT nearly as much!
TMI warning....Have you ever been puking so much, so fast, so hard, that you actually feel like you are suffocating?!! That it can't come out fast enough or go back down fast enough? You are bawling, your nose just runs, despite all attempts to stop it, and in between the heaves when you are TRYING to catch your breath, your mouth just NON-STOP waters...Oh you have?? Okay no imagine having that up to 20+ times a day! Or like me today 1o times. Holla!!! who wants to take my place?! Oh you haven't...Well, you are lucky and I am so jealous of you I hate you right now! =D
What gets me through these times??? The little avocado in my belly. (Not literally!!!) but I think that is what my baby calendar said how big Baby F is. Maybe a little bigger. I think of the end of this pregnancy, I think of what all the other woman I have read about or have talked to say, it is almost instant, the minute they cut the cord and you are holding your baby: BOOM!!! Instant relief and you get to hold the prize! AMAZING!!!
**I should state at some point, I classify myself with Moderate HG. Some of the things I do are severe (the nausea and the weight loss 17 pounds so far in 16 weeks), but overall I am moderate.
Some women require a picc line with TPN, (nutrients right into their veins, actually the picc line is in the vein and stops just 2 inches shy of the heart) an NG tube, or a PEG tube feeding tube, constant IV fluids, home health care, etc.
I have realized 2 things (did I post this already?)
1. I am not alone
2. It could be worse
okay, it is late, I need to sleep in hopes of being able to work tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I know i mentioned this before, I am not a religious person but i sure have been praying a lot more lately. surprisingly not always to God, but to my Grandma. I really do miss her!
send the good vibes my way
night
~J
Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG)...What the heck is it?
My definition is HELL. That is what it is. Easiest way to describe it. Oh, if it were only that easy.
Beyondmorningsickness.com defines HG under the Excerpts Tab:
*"A hyperemetic mother can vomit between four and twenty (or more) times a day for months"
*"losing greater than 5% of your total body weight is one clinical indication supporting a diagnosis of severe HG."
*Dehydration
*Electrolyte imbalance
*Carbohydrate depletion and Ketonuria ---Once your body doesn't have carbs to burn for energy it starts to burn fat as well as taking energy from muscles and organs. This creates keytones. Which make your blood acidic. You are considered to be in starvation mode.
Sounds like a great time huh? NOT!
Here are some additional resources that I have used to make myself knowledgeable about HG as my OB FAILED to!
Her Foundation Hyperemesis Education and Foundation
Wikipedia
American Pregnancy Association
Baby Center ---once you sign up for your free profile you can look into the Groups, the Hyperemesis Suffers Group is amazing!
There are MANY MANY blogs as well that have a plethora of information! I wish I would have favorited (yes another "real" word!) them all so I could give you a list. Maybe I will work on that for another post.
So...this post, you have to do a little of the footwork yourself. I apologize for that, but really, everyone needs to procrastinate at some time or another. =-) Take this time to learn some info about HG and have some compassion.
Today, I vomited 10 times. And no I don't mean 10 heaves during ONE trip to the loo. No, I mean 10 SEPARATE trips to the bathroom emptying the precious contents of my belly right into the crapper. SO DEPRESSING!!! I should really just start throwing my food right into the crapper. It wouldn't HURT nearly as much!
TMI warning....Have you ever been puking so much, so fast, so hard, that you actually feel like you are suffocating?!! That it can't come out fast enough or go back down fast enough? You are bawling, your nose just runs, despite all attempts to stop it, and in between the heaves when you are TRYING to catch your breath, your mouth just NON-STOP waters...Oh you have?? Okay no imagine having that up to 20+ times a day! Or like me today 1o times. Holla!!! who wants to take my place?! Oh you haven't...Well, you are lucky and I am so jealous of you I hate you right now! =D
What gets me through these times??? The little avocado in my belly. (Not literally!!!) but I think that is what my baby calendar said how big Baby F is. Maybe a little bigger. I think of the end of this pregnancy, I think of what all the other woman I have read about or have talked to say, it is almost instant, the minute they cut the cord and you are holding your baby: BOOM!!! Instant relief and you get to hold the prize! AMAZING!!!
**I should state at some point, I classify myself with Moderate HG. Some of the things I do are severe (the nausea and the weight loss 17 pounds so far in 16 weeks), but overall I am moderate.
Some women require a picc line with TPN, (nutrients right into their veins, actually the picc line is in the vein and stops just 2 inches shy of the heart) an NG tube, or a PEG tube feeding tube, constant IV fluids, home health care, etc.
I have realized 2 things (did I post this already?)
1. I am not alone
2. It could be worse
okay, it is late, I need to sleep in hopes of being able to work tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me. I know i mentioned this before, I am not a religious person but i sure have been praying a lot more lately. surprisingly not always to God, but to my Grandma. I really do miss her!
send the good vibes my way
night
~J
What the HELL was I thinking??!!!
I didn't take my unisom or B6 last night (prevents nausea and helps me sleep). I was feeling "better" so thought I'd skip it. This morning when I woke up I was feeling good too so I didn't take my 1/2 Zofran. DUMB!!! I was really hoping I was turning a corner.
I just got done vomiting the entire contents (trail mix bar and 12 oz of PRECIOUS juice) of my stomach into the toilet. UGH!!!!!!
My poor daughter got so scared she called the hubs on the phone!
*I just taught her this morning how to use the prepaid cell phone to call the hubs, my mom or 911 (if I am hurt or don't wake up---yes this is the anxiety)
I wrote Grandma: and the #, Dad: #
She called him and was telling him I scared her because I was puking so much. When I got done in the bathroom I got on the phone and explained to him what happened. He said, "Guess I failed, I thought she was just talking to me and nothing was really wrong." I explained to him I just taught her to use the phone. He was impressed.
I hung up with him, took 1/2 a zofran, turned on the TV in our room, crawled in and have my daughter in bed with me watching a movie. I have the heating pad on my left shoulder (don't worry, it's on low) and I'm posting to my blog.
*Sigh* I hate the numb feeling in my left arm, I hate vomiting, I hate the anxiety rushing over me that I may die. (Chances r slim to none that I am actually going to die) But it doesn't mean I don't feel that way.
I honestly believe that if I never would have had "The Stroke Experience" (previous post) I wouldn't have this Anxiety.
----Ahhh....enter stage right....Hyperemisis Gravidarum. ---yeah, the anxiety would still be here, just not as bad. (This is what I tell myself)
Until my next post. I need to sleep. My body is exhausted and my head hurts all over inside and out. The hubs just got home too. Good.
~J
I just got done vomiting the entire contents (trail mix bar and 12 oz of PRECIOUS juice) of my stomach into the toilet. UGH!!!!!!
My poor daughter got so scared she called the hubs on the phone!
*I just taught her this morning how to use the prepaid cell phone to call the hubs, my mom or 911 (if I am hurt or don't wake up---yes this is the anxiety)
I wrote Grandma: and the #, Dad: #
She called him and was telling him I scared her because I was puking so much. When I got done in the bathroom I got on the phone and explained to him what happened. He said, "Guess I failed, I thought she was just talking to me and nothing was really wrong." I explained to him I just taught her to use the phone. He was impressed.
I hung up with him, took 1/2 a zofran, turned on the TV in our room, crawled in and have my daughter in bed with me watching a movie. I have the heating pad on my left shoulder (don't worry, it's on low) and I'm posting to my blog.
*Sigh* I hate the numb feeling in my left arm, I hate vomiting, I hate the anxiety rushing over me that I may die. (Chances r slim to none that I am actually going to die) But it doesn't mean I don't feel that way.
I honestly believe that if I never would have had "The Stroke Experience" (previous post) I wouldn't have this Anxiety.
----Ahhh....enter stage right....Hyperemisis Gravidarum. ---yeah, the anxiety would still be here, just not as bad. (This is what I tell myself)
Until my next post. I need to sleep. My body is exhausted and my head hurts all over inside and out. The hubs just got home too. Good.
~J
How My Anxiety Started
We were so thrilled!! And couldn't believe it happened so fast!! Way to go Girly parts on ovulating and way to go little swimmers for making your way there!
Woot woot! We r having a baby!
Around 6 weeks I went up north to my sister's to watch my nephew with my daughter. We had a great time. I wasn't eating like I should have been as I was busy playing with the kiddos. Saturday afternoon I stood up and my vision went blurry and my arm went numb! I told my sister and proceeded to freak out a bit. I chalked it up to not eating. After about 10 LONG minutes everything righted itself and we decided to get some food. Mmmmm Qdoba!! I ate, but I didn't feel better.
My daughter and I were meeting up with my parents at a local hotel to stay with them. We got to the hotel and I told my parents what happened and slid into the comfy hotel bed. I tried to nap. My dad took my daughter to the pool and they swam while I watched exhaustedly. (Yeah that is a word!) We ordered Chinese for dinner, I are some, and went to bed.
The next day I still didn't feel right. My dad was going to tailgate at the Packer game and my mom was going to a friend's. I dropped my mom off and stay for a little while. I told her I was going to leave because I still wasn't feeling well and had a long drive ahead of me with my daughter.
I stop for gas and call the hubs. I tell him when I get home I want him to take me to the ER because I am not feeling well. He said okay. I went to pay and when I came back to the truck my right arm went numb, the right side of my face went numb, the right side of my tongue went numb!! I FREAKED out!!! I called the hubs told him I was going to the ER right now! As I was driving there my vision started going blurry. I should have pulled over and called 911, but I didn't. The hospital was 2 blocks away. I called my mom and told her I was going to the ER but she couldn't understand me!! She kept saying, "What?? What did u say?! I can't understand you!" Slurred speech!!
OMG I was having a stroke!!! I am going to die in the parking lot of the ER and my poor 4 year old is going to witness this?!?!
"God, please let me make it into the ER."
I got out and almost fell to the ground my legs were shaky. I hobbled to let my daughter out and told her, "I love u soooo much!" She looked at me funny. Chances are that isn't what I really said. :(
I got inside and told them what happened and I was so scared. The first woman was very nice and cared. I had to wait about 10 mins before I got back in the ER. In that time I texted the hubs told him I loved him and that I was sorry if I didn't make it home.
The nurse that took me (and my daughter) back was NOT very nice! She told me this was all in my head and I was probably just hyper ventilating. "OMG lady I'm dying!!"
Rest of the story short, they ran tests, DIDN'T start an IV, and did an MRI. The Doc came out after the MRI and said, "Good news, u didn't have a stroke and u don't have MS (Multiple Sclerosis)." Okay what the hell is wrong with me then?? I very clearly was going to die!!
The doc said, "It was probably a migraine aura." And then gave me a Dx of Parethesis." And then discharged me. What??!!! I didn't get any answers??!!! *sigh*
My mom and dad had made it to the hospital as this was all happening. My dad drove me home and my daughter wanted to ride with grandma. We stopped for food and surprising I was able to eat. I was sick the whole 2.5 hour drive home.
I got home and crawled into bed. I didn't get out of bed for 3 days. It was horrible! I was having residual numbness and pain and felt HORRIBLE! Neither my OB or my primary care physician would follow up with more tests or an additional MRI. They both said, "The MRI was negative."
Thus where my anxiety started!!
~J
Woot woot! We r having a baby!
Around 6 weeks I went up north to my sister's to watch my nephew with my daughter. We had a great time. I wasn't eating like I should have been as I was busy playing with the kiddos. Saturday afternoon I stood up and my vision went blurry and my arm went numb! I told my sister and proceeded to freak out a bit. I chalked it up to not eating. After about 10 LONG minutes everything righted itself and we decided to get some food. Mmmmm Qdoba!! I ate, but I didn't feel better.
My daughter and I were meeting up with my parents at a local hotel to stay with them. We got to the hotel and I told my parents what happened and slid into the comfy hotel bed. I tried to nap. My dad took my daughter to the pool and they swam while I watched exhaustedly. (Yeah that is a word!) We ordered Chinese for dinner, I are some, and went to bed.
The next day I still didn't feel right. My dad was going to tailgate at the Packer game and my mom was going to a friend's. I dropped my mom off and stay for a little while. I told her I was going to leave because I still wasn't feeling well and had a long drive ahead of me with my daughter.
I stop for gas and call the hubs. I tell him when I get home I want him to take me to the ER because I am not feeling well. He said okay. I went to pay and when I came back to the truck my right arm went numb, the right side of my face went numb, the right side of my tongue went numb!! I FREAKED out!!! I called the hubs told him I was going to the ER right now! As I was driving there my vision started going blurry. I should have pulled over and called 911, but I didn't. The hospital was 2 blocks away. I called my mom and told her I was going to the ER but she couldn't understand me!! She kept saying, "What?? What did u say?! I can't understand you!" Slurred speech!!
OMG I was having a stroke!!! I am going to die in the parking lot of the ER and my poor 4 year old is going to witness this?!?!
"God, please let me make it into the ER."
I got out and almost fell to the ground my legs were shaky. I hobbled to let my daughter out and told her, "I love u soooo much!" She looked at me funny. Chances are that isn't what I really said. :(
I got inside and told them what happened and I was so scared. The first woman was very nice and cared. I had to wait about 10 mins before I got back in the ER. In that time I texted the hubs told him I loved him and that I was sorry if I didn't make it home.
The nurse that took me (and my daughter) back was NOT very nice! She told me this was all in my head and I was probably just hyper ventilating. "OMG lady I'm dying!!"
Rest of the story short, they ran tests, DIDN'T start an IV, and did an MRI. The Doc came out after the MRI and said, "Good news, u didn't have a stroke and u don't have MS (Multiple Sclerosis)." Okay what the hell is wrong with me then?? I very clearly was going to die!!
The doc said, "It was probably a migraine aura." And then gave me a Dx of Parethesis." And then discharged me. What??!!! I didn't get any answers??!!! *sigh*
My mom and dad had made it to the hospital as this was all happening. My dad drove me home and my daughter wanted to ride with grandma. We stopped for food and surprising I was able to eat. I was sick the whole 2.5 hour drive home.
I got home and crawled into bed. I didn't get out of bed for 3 days. It was horrible! I was having residual numbness and pain and felt HORRIBLE! Neither my OB or my primary care physician would follow up with more tests or an additional MRI. They both said, "The MRI was negative."
Thus where my anxiety started!!
~J
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Trying to Get Preggers the 2nd time
Our daughter is 4 1/2 right now. When she was born, she was a handful. And not like a first time mom thinks of a handful. She had colic, she projectile vomited multiple times a day, she was lactose intolerant, she hated the swing or the bouncy chair. She just wanted her mama 24/7. It took us awhile to figure out she was lactose intolerant. In fact, she was on the super expensive formula for awhile, you know the kind that is hypoallergenic! yeah....CRAZY! Anyway...Once we figured out the issues, thing went smoothly.
My hubby and I toyed around with the idea of having another baby right away, but we decided to wait a bit. Well a "bit" turned out to be YEARS! After having my daughter I had some major hormone imbalance issues. Rarely got my period, and was just a mess! The hubs and I decided it was best to put baby making on hold and I should go on the pill.
When our daughter was 3 we decided it was time to try and get preggers. So we tried. Nothing happened because I wasn't getting my period. I went to my OB and she said I must have PCOS and put me on Metformin. Have you ever been on Metformin?? That stuff makes you crap! and I don't mean like, "Ooh, I have to go poop." It;s more like, "OMG I have to go again!!!??? and it is like crapping through a screen!!" My OB had me start 500mg 3x a day. I stayed on it for a month and told the hubs my ass was so raw that I just had to stop! I couldn't take it! PLUS, I was working for an in-home autism program. Yeah, that doesn't go over well, "Excuse me kiddo while I go destroy your bathroom and hope no one hears!" I did however get my period that month. but nothing else.
My OB then wanted me to go on progesterone. Sounded easy enough, take these little white pills for 10 days and by the end of the next 10 days I get my period and "BOOM" my body jump starts and all is good! EXCEPT my body never jump started. I took it for 4 months. Every time I did get my period, but nothing else.
In November of 2011 I finally decided okay one more try with the Metformin. This time, I only took 500mg one time a day. After 3 weeks, I thought forget this shit! For real! Same problems, and I was not going to deal with that.
I have always been a big girl, but I was close to the heaviest I had been. Not THE heaviest, but I was creeping that way! I knew I had to do something! I called an old friend who I knew was a personal trainer. I asked if I could meet with her. I gave her the run down and she was so excited that she had me all excited!!! We met soon after the call!
So, I had gotten myself all psyched up to be running 2 miles a day and a bunch of push ups, crunchers, etc. Only come to find out....My personal trainer is 80% diet, 10% exercise, and 10% genetics. OR was it 90, 5, 5? doesn't matter. All I heard was, "Eat better, exercise when you can." I can do this!!
She introduced me to The Paleo Diet. Best thing that ever happened to me. This diet is not for everyone and I strongly suggest that you talk to you health care provider before starting. It took A LOT of learning, and A LOT of prep at first, but within a few weeks, I had it all memorized and knew the ins and outs! By the end of the first month not only had the weight melted off but I had gotten my period for the first time in 2.5 years WITHOUT taking some type of medication! WOOT WOOT!!!! How awesome is that!!!??
I continued being Paleo for 4 months, then I went gluten free. I still was getting my period BONUS! After 6 months of changed diet and getting my period, the hubs and I thought, "No time like the present." I went and bought an ovulation kit. Well, low and behold, the first month of trying..."BOOM" we were pregnant!!
I knew I was preggers before I peed on the stick. I was was SOOOOO excited!!! =)
It was August of 2012!! And we are going to have a BABY!!!
~J
My hubby and I toyed around with the idea of having another baby right away, but we decided to wait a bit. Well a "bit" turned out to be YEARS! After having my daughter I had some major hormone imbalance issues. Rarely got my period, and was just a mess! The hubs and I decided it was best to put baby making on hold and I should go on the pill.
When our daughter was 3 we decided it was time to try and get preggers. So we tried. Nothing happened because I wasn't getting my period. I went to my OB and she said I must have PCOS and put me on Metformin. Have you ever been on Metformin?? That stuff makes you crap! and I don't mean like, "Ooh, I have to go poop." It;s more like, "OMG I have to go again!!!??? and it is like crapping through a screen!!" My OB had me start 500mg 3x a day. I stayed on it for a month and told the hubs my ass was so raw that I just had to stop! I couldn't take it! PLUS, I was working for an in-home autism program. Yeah, that doesn't go over well, "Excuse me kiddo while I go destroy your bathroom and hope no one hears!" I did however get my period that month. but nothing else.
My OB then wanted me to go on progesterone. Sounded easy enough, take these little white pills for 10 days and by the end of the next 10 days I get my period and "BOOM" my body jump starts and all is good! EXCEPT my body never jump started. I took it for 4 months. Every time I did get my period, but nothing else.
In November of 2011 I finally decided okay one more try with the Metformin. This time, I only took 500mg one time a day. After 3 weeks, I thought forget this shit! For real! Same problems, and I was not going to deal with that.
I have always been a big girl, but I was close to the heaviest I had been. Not THE heaviest, but I was creeping that way! I knew I had to do something! I called an old friend who I knew was a personal trainer. I asked if I could meet with her. I gave her the run down and she was so excited that she had me all excited!!! We met soon after the call!
So, I had gotten myself all psyched up to be running 2 miles a day and a bunch of push ups, crunchers, etc. Only come to find out....My personal trainer is 80% diet, 10% exercise, and 10% genetics. OR was it 90, 5, 5? doesn't matter. All I heard was, "Eat better, exercise when you can." I can do this!!
She introduced me to The Paleo Diet. Best thing that ever happened to me. This diet is not for everyone and I strongly suggest that you talk to you health care provider before starting. It took A LOT of learning, and A LOT of prep at first, but within a few weeks, I had it all memorized and knew the ins and outs! By the end of the first month not only had the weight melted off but I had gotten my period for the first time in 2.5 years WITHOUT taking some type of medication! WOOT WOOT!!!! How awesome is that!!!??
I continued being Paleo for 4 months, then I went gluten free. I still was getting my period BONUS! After 6 months of changed diet and getting my period, the hubs and I thought, "No time like the present." I went and bought an ovulation kit. Well, low and behold, the first month of trying..."BOOM" we were pregnant!!
I knew I was preggers before I peed on the stick. I was was SOOOOO excited!!! =)
It was August of 2012!! And we are going to have a BABY!!!
~J
Friday, November 16, 2012
First Post
Well, my first post. A perfect title for it don't u think??
What is this blog gonna be about? It is about me and my trials and tribulations during my second pregnancy. I realize I need an outlet and this is going to be it.
I hope it doesn't get boring and drawn out and I hope that someone can benefit from it. I will try to only post 1 time a day, but chances are to get through this...it may be more.
A little about me:
I'm from a small town in the Midwest. I'm in my early 30's. I am married and have a beautiful daughter who is 4. Oh, and of course, the reason for the blog...I'm pregnant with our 2nd child!!! This pregnancy was planned. When we first found out we were so excited! :D Now, I just pray to make it through the day. What a switch huh?? I am not a religious person, but I am spiritual. And I believe my spirituality is surely being brought out.
I apologize now for the use of text speak, the use of abbreviations, etc. I will try to use the full word a few times with the abbreviation in ( ) first. Operative word TRY.
Some common used abbreviations:
Dx diagnosis/diagnosed
Pg pregnant/pregnancy
U you
Ur your
U r you are
HG Hyperemisis Gravidarum
I'm sure more will come up.
Okay, well I think that does it for the intros. I leave you tonight with this and will blog more tomrw.
Until then g'night
~J
What is this blog gonna be about? It is about me and my trials and tribulations during my second pregnancy. I realize I need an outlet and this is going to be it.
I hope it doesn't get boring and drawn out and I hope that someone can benefit from it. I will try to only post 1 time a day, but chances are to get through this...it may be more.
A little about me:
I'm from a small town in the Midwest. I'm in my early 30's. I am married and have a beautiful daughter who is 4. Oh, and of course, the reason for the blog...I'm pregnant with our 2nd child!!! This pregnancy was planned. When we first found out we were so excited! :D Now, I just pray to make it through the day. What a switch huh?? I am not a religious person, but I am spiritual. And I believe my spirituality is surely being brought out.
I apologize now for the use of text speak, the use of abbreviations, etc. I will try to use the full word a few times with the abbreviation in ( ) first. Operative word TRY.
Some common used abbreviations:
Dx diagnosis/diagnosed
Pg pregnant/pregnancy
U you
Ur your
U r you are
HG Hyperemisis Gravidarum
I'm sure more will come up.
Okay, well I think that does it for the intros. I leave you tonight with this and will blog more tomrw.
Until then g'night
~J
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