Anxiety...such a dirty word!!! I hate it.
I went back to work last week. I work M,W,F. Thank goodness!!! I needed every minute off I could! In fact I got so stressed out on Friday last week at work that I had a mini panic attack right in the break room!! :/ it was pretty intense!! I won't lie. This week I only work 2 days because of the holiday!!! Woot woot!! Thank you!
Since being back to work I have noticed I have more physical symptoms. I'm not liking that one bit! Mostly chest pain and increased heart rate. :/
I have been doing some research and GERD and anxiety can go hand in hand. Which would make sense of some of my physical symptoms. Unfortunately the increased physical symptoms bring in the one intrusive thought I have...."am I going to live through the night"
How ridiculous! I mean for real! How dumb that is what goes through my head when I'm about to go to sleep. Well, that and I'm glad I had a good day with my kids do they will have that and know I loved them. Good lord!!! I wish there was a way to shut off the possible GERD and see if I still have chat pains and increased heart rate.
I just want to be myself again! That's all I want. :/
The kiddos are doing great!! Chitlin is learning how to be a big sister and baby is looking around and taking it ALL in!!!
I need to go to bed! She will be up shortly and I'll be useless!!
Until Later
-J
Hey! I am sorry that work is making things harder for you. I think about you and pray for you every night!
ReplyDeleteI am glad to hear that the baby is doing well!