GI virus??? Food poisoning??? The world hates me???

This weekend was supposed to be ALL about fun!! Going to an indoor water park with family and friends, and a friend's daughters 1st bday party!!! Did we make it??? Nope! Why??? Cuz I'm on the shitter. Yep, u read that right!!! I'm on the shitter. Most of the time I'm not sure which end it will be coming from so I decided that Chitlin's bathroom is best since the tub is right close and I can do both as needed. Which......I've needed. Anywho......the reason for this post is to talk about PTSD. Now, I haven't been Dx with PTSD, but I can tell you after spending all this time BACK in the bathroom, I can relate all to well. Not only am I physically sick, but mentally I'm a wreck!!!

When I first started heaving I went into flight or fight mode and tears started streaming down my face. This was happening, and it was happening RIGHT NOW!!! I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. There was NO WAY I was puking in that toilet so in the sink it went!! Horrible!! I started burning up!!! I started shaking, the tears were flowing and I was scared for my life. Chitlin actually said, "dad, ma's puking....AGAIN!!! It's been forever, come help her!" I about died right there!!! 

Hubby helped me get calmed down, helped with the kids AND scrubbed the toilet spotless for me!! Thank god!! I ended up needing it 1 more time, then realized, I'd be using chiltlin's bathroom! Lol 

The fear that came over me, the utter panic, it was..., I don't know, I can't even put words to it. Poorly described it was scary. I hope this gi crap passes soon cuz quite frankly, I don't want to keep feeling this way!!!

Happy thoughts!!

Until tmrw

~J