10/27/2013
Pffft! I practically fell off the face of the earth! So much going on and NO time what so ever! Go figure right?!?!?! Anxiety- it blows hard core! Don't get me wrong, I'm a complete 180 from when I first was diagnosed 5months ago, but shit, it still is a HUGE part of my life. I honestly can say I hate it! But all I can do is keep fighting cuz dammit, I will win this fight!
-what have I done to help already:
•counseling- HUGE DEAL helped a lot
•Meds- a continual work in progress. Some days I feel 100% other days I know they need tweaking (NOT TWERKING, tweaking)
•talking to a friend/blogging/typing
12/30/2013
I came on my blog to write as I am in midst of a panic attack and I see that this post was never published!!! How rude of me!! It's been sitting in my draft box for 2 months!!! Well I better finish it and get it published!!!
Anxiety can suck it. It has been over 2 months since I have had a full blown anxiety attack!!! I'm not saying it hasn't been hard, because god knows it has been! "Everyday I'm struggling" eh botched song lyric switched word attempt!! Anyway....as I am typing this in midst of my attack, I'm holding my precious baby girl who isn't such a baby anymore. She turned 8 months yesterday!!! I think of where I have been in the last 2 years!!!
2 years ago I had no health concerns, other than being overweight, but couldn't get pregnant. Come hell or high water, we were going to have a beautiful baby!!! I talked with my friend Kellie and I instantly went Paleo. 6 short months later I was pg and well that's when this treacherous journey began. I'm still looking for answers and I don't know if I will ever get them???
The intense burning is the worst or at least tied for the worst. Feeling like u are unable to breathe due to the intense burning or maybe when u feel ur heart may just explode! Ugh... Those are tied too for first! No, no, now just wait...it's all just shitty the whole damn thing!
When my attack started tonight I took 1/2 a Xanax, it helped a little, but now I took the other half in hopes that it indeed will help. If it doesn't help...well then, this isn't anxiety and something else is wrong!!!
Going to lay down and try to let my meds work. Thanks for hanging in there with me and keepin it "real"
Peace out!! ---do u like this closing???
J
